So it's been a while since my last post. Writing this, I haven't checked and don't even remember what I last wrote about. EDIT- just looked at my last post, yea he's gonna be home next month :). And in regrads to the next paragraph, well...we'll see what happens with him. I'm hoping for the best and preparing for the worst. I finished up my first rotation for school, and I'm now 2 days into my second. It's not bad, I like the place, not sure if I would want to work there though. But at the same time, at this point a jobs a job if they offer.
Guys in my life have moved on. One I've written about most on here, he's got a girlfriend now. Super happy for him cause he deserves it. But he was all, I'll never find anyone like you, I don't know what I'm gonna do without you. Now he's all I love you, your the most amazing person, to her. And I'm like well told you that you would find someone! I mean, I know I'm nothing special. I've known that for years. Still it sucks being right about knowing he'll find happiness and I won't. People always leave. I know I push them away, I don't need them getting close enough and finding out, but really, who wants to be alone? I want to find that person who will stay.
Anyways, so i've been maintaining around 110-113. Not on a diet or counting big time. Like I don't count all the calories in one meal, but smaller things, like snacks, salads, that make up my diet. Trying to get back on track though. I've ben so out of it and unfocused, I don't know what's wrong, but I hope I figure it out soon.
