Well I'm a god awful blogger now aren't I. So much has happened. I'm actually back with L, he asked me to marry him, but it's not my proposal...cause he's deployed. But he wanted to ask anyway I guess lol. I gained like 3 lbs, be easy to lose if I didn't have people watching me all the time :( but I'll find a way. Once fall comes it won't be as noticeable cause I won't be wearing shorts and summer clothes. But more serious news. I have to see a cardiologist. I read the referall and it's for an ECG for tachycardia. I know that's all my fault pretty much, but can't really do anything about that now. I need to find a low cal lunch I can eat every day, and easy to make, I never make it the night before and no time in the morning to really make anything. But if I don't eat at lunch I binge at night. I already don't eat in the morning. I can do this. I can get back on track. I will do it.