Sunday, March 25, 2012
Apathy
I just dont care anymore. About anything. Its the only way to get through this, through my life. Wanting hurts. I want to be thin, I want to be wanted and loved. I want to be beautiful...not sexy or hot. Yea sure those are nice when the time is right. But I want to be called beautiful, its an entirely different connation. But I guess I'm not. I guess I'm only good for one thing. So I just don't care anymore. I'll go through the steps of my life, but I'm done giving a shit. I'm done trying to get better, I'm going to do whatever the fuck I want. And if that means I'm not going to eat then they can fucking deal with it. It's my life, and they never took any interest in it before even when I was being obvious about it praying someone would say something. It took me saying it only to stop a fight and I wasnt even a part of. And even now no one really cares. So why the hell should I? Theres only one thing...person I cant stop caring about, but hes the one I need to forget the most. He's obviously forgotten me.
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*hugs*
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're hurting.
I'm sorry darling....hang in there. I hope things get better and brighter for you.
ReplyDeletexx SN